"If your heart is in the right place, tell your butt to get there!"
I got married back in November 2002......this is what I looked like back then......
I've never been small by any means of the word....always the biggest one in my family, especially since both my sisters were a size 2 in high school and I was never smaller than a 12.......but while on my mission in Chile, I lost a lot of weight and the size I was when I got married was perfect for me. I would give anything to be that size again.......
Lately, I'd say for the past several years....I've been absolutely disgusted with myself. It's actually gotten to the point where I try to always be the one taking pictures so I don't have to be in them....and I can't even stand looking at myself in the mirror. I'm in denial about the size of clothes I have to buy now and I just hate how I feel and how I see myself. It's totally my own fault, I've totally let myself go since being married....and after almost 9 years and 3 babies.......I've gained 65lbs. :(
Ova is so sweet, he's constantly telling me I'm beautiful and when we dress up to go somewhere, he always tells me I look nice. I'm grateful for that....but I just don't see it......
I totally blame myself, because for the last few years I've been throwing a pity party for myself and not doing anything about it.....I mean, how am I gonna make myself feel better about myself if I don't take any action to fix the problem.....it's not like it can fix itself!
So, Ova's older brother has a friend who works at the Gold's Gym in Provo.....his brother has been going there for a couple months now, and he kept telling us how great he feels and how much weigh he is losing.....I totally thank him for giving us the motivation to start!
On April 19th, Ova and I became members of Gold's Gym.....and honestly we made a goal that day to go to the gym everyday, to eat healthier, and to motivate and push each other to get where we both want to be. Thankfully, we've been sticking to our plan!
I'm actually very surprised at myself. I've never really dedicated myself to a workout program before, and I'm pretty much super lazy......I could just see myself getting tired and instead of pushing myself, just giving up. I didn't really know at first how this deal we made was going to work out. Like I said, I'm actually very surprised at myself.....I have been able to push myself a lot harder than I thought I would be able to and I've been keeping up with the schedule we set for ourselves!
Here's our gym routine:
When we get there, we ride the bike for 20 minutes....just to get some cardio in and to stretch out before we lift....
Then we lift.....alternating arms one day, legs the next......
Ova is my personal trainer and he's the best because he pushes me when he sees I need pushing and he always says "good job babe" after every set he sees me struggle through.
After we lift, we hit the treadmill......we're not at the point where we can run like we'd both like to....so for now we speed walk for 20-40minutes.
And somedays when we're done with our workout, we hit the sauna and hot tub!
I'm very grateful that we have the ability to go together.....to workout together, lose weight together and get in shape together. It's quality time that we get to spend together and I love it!
I must say though, I'm getting extremely discouraged because he's dropping weight so much quicker than I am.....it's frustrating because we work out the same...do everything the same (except for the weights of course, because he can lift so much more than me)......but he's already dropped 30lbs, and I've only dropped 5. I know that men lose weight a lot quicker than women......but it's frustrating!
I gotta stick to it though and keep pushing! Although my results aren't as great as Ova's......I feel great and that's what I'm happy about! It feels great to know that I'm finally doing something to change what I hate about myself.....and even if it takes a while.... I.CAN.DO.IT!!!